Can This Be Love? .... Maybe.

Friday, October 07, 2005

Thoughts ....

i hav been tinkin again.... this time round... is not abt him... fortunately.... but is on the other aspect of my life.... frenzs....

reading thru my testimonials in friendster, lookin thru the photos of old times.... tinkin abt what hav i change.... hmmm....

tinkin abt those frenz i had since young.... apparently... i find that, i tend to be clingy lor.... hmm... not a good sign though... luckily i changed.... but is like, i realised that i had learnt it the hard way lor....

i been thru so much pain and stuffs, just to understand one simple point.... ppl need personal space ....

in the process of understandin, how mani true frenz hav i lost??? ..... countless.... coz i neber bother to bond with them.... i just conc on one frenz lor.... but when i do that, it wears out lor... as i keep on steppin into ppl's personal space... they get defensive, and they pull out of the frenzship...

hmm.... i guess it was wrong in my part, bein a stubborn person, i always stick to my thinkin.... which kinda too naive lor.... the society is too complicated .... let me tell u what was my tinkin all along "Must always be there for ur frenz" ..... haha.... sound so good in words... yet there is a continuation .... "when they need u" .... kinda make friendship sound so "making use of one another lor" .... coz i always tink, what if they dun need you??? .... throw u aside lor.... i tot i will neber meet such ppl, unfortunately, i am just too naive.... i met too many of this ppl liao.... and i got freakin hurt everytime.... when the truth struck me....

and wat happen??? .... i lose confidence .... in friendship.... i became wary of ppl arnd me.... i dun mixed that well, i get cynical on frenz.... which is realli bad.... coz i am not this kinda person....

i still wanna find a true friend.... someone i can trust, i can tok to when i am down, someone that hav mutual trust .... someone whu wun hurt me.... is that so diff to find??? .....

i give more den i take, which a lot of my frenz say i am stupid.... coz ppl out there are taking without givin.... at first i tot it is ok, coz "to give without expectin any returns" .... but as times goes by.... i realise i dun like bein make use of .... bein taken for granted.... i am human like everyone.... i hav feelings... i also need love .... haiz.... but unfortunately, a lot of ppl in the society, tink onli for themselves....

i am still searchin for the ppl whu believe in true frenzship, whu is willing to be a true frenz.....

Considered for a second about our love at {10/07/2005 12:34:00 AM}
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