Can This Be Love? .... Maybe.

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Humid ....

sianz sia, the temp is realli gettin on my nerves.....

ok, yesterday, i woke up at 12pm, went to meet Janette at Bugis lor.... first i went over to Shawn & Gladys to get my tic for the sunday comp.... phew, feel relieved sia... haha....

den went to walk arnd Parco lor... haha... maybe is kinda feel that the place looks kinda unfamiliar, so was walkin arnd aimlessly... haha... plus i tink i didnt get enuf rest, so was super shagged... hmmm ......

den i met Jinglin to eat Hokkien Mee at the coffee shop... haha.... eat eat and eat... yummy... had two glass of sugarcane juice... haha... yummy.... haha....

den finally manage to get myself a new pair of sunglass lor... haha... came back home for dinner... had fish... yes ... fish.... haha.... homecooked proper food... i am so happy man.... saw dad and mum.... hmmm....

went out to meet Irene to play pool lor... damn, my skill went down liao... can believe i lost to Irene, Phillip and Jeff.... must start train again... haha.... came back at abt 1am.... was watchin my anime lor... haha....

today, was supposed to meet tracy and bobo for coffee.... but what happen, had a quarrel with mum... haiz... sparked off by the cig case... den from there is a full blown lect which i heard dunno how many million times.... bad.... so dun tink i wanna get out of the hse liao... haiz... honestly, i feel not at home ..... i realli miss perth lor....

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Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Home....

ok, this is me reportin back in singapore, not sth that i am keen off... current temp is at 28 degress, and freakin humid.... haiz

anyway, today was a rushed day though, woke up early in the mornin, final cleanin of hse, den went uni to see Maureen, she was goin thru my reserach paper which i am so proud of, coz i recall the previous time she commented was all kenna shoot, but this time round, she commented on the paper with lotsa ticks, of coz there are areas to make it better... but overall, i am proud of this paper sia.... she gave me a lift back to erica, where i grab some chewin gum from coles for my bro... den took a cab with Heikal, Pamela, Nigel and his frenz, to the airport.... haha... apparently my luggage onli weigh 20kg so kinda helped Heikal and Pam, coz they overloaded lor... haha.... was slackin at the cafe, chattin on the phone with steph, haha....

when the plane took off, i had mixed feelins, well i noe i am sure to be back in less den three months, but i still dun wanna leave, on the plane, i watched "Bewitched", "kungfu Mahjong", and "Initial D"... haha.... the food was ok, but too bad no rice, haiz... it improved though... haha

when the plane gonna touch down , the tots that went thru my head, was kinda negative, it just reminded me that all the tings that i ran away from, i hav to face it... haiz... damn sad, and i alreadi miss perth... damn.... and i lost my sunglasses... damn damn... wtf ....

saw my mum and bro, well, mum look kinda tired, but she look happy to see me back... while my bro, haiz, he has grown taller... with a funny lookin hairstyle, me gonna correct it when i am in spore... anyway, i tot i will be takin a cab back, instead, mum insisted we take the MRT.... haiz... me like wtf.... but still, i understand lor, mum wanna save money lor... me also dun argue much lor.... so while in the train, hmmm.... it just reminded me of everyting.... it reminded me why i hate spore, haiz..... everyone was starin at me lor.... wtf... wats wrong with carryin luggage in the train and my face was kinda sun burnt... hmmm.... i felt that i am better dressed den everyone in the train... hmmm... odd feeling.....

anyway, took a cab from train station back home, and immediately, me went out for supper... haha... my wanton mee.... yeah.... with jinglin and stanley lor... haha.... finally see different varieties of food.... haha.... was chattin till just now lor.... haha... well, came back and realise it is still early, well, the sky definately show the exact time, i tot it is like 3 plus in the morning, but is onli 1am... haha.... have to get use to it man... haha....

ok, gonna rest tonite, on proper bed and my fav pillow.... tml gotta go pick up stuffs and hopefully do my passport tingy, although i will be back for dinner, mum cookin seafood for me... touched... me will try to spend more time at home learnin how to cook.... haha... after one sem, i noe the impt of cookin variety liao... haha....

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Monday, November 28, 2005

whizin home...

ok, in less den 24hrs i will be home, back in spore.... not a excitin tot though.... haiz....

anyway.... lets recap, woke up at 2plus this afternoon.... did my laundry.... den followed heikal they all to Freo.... haha... manage to grab peaches and strawberries for my mum.... cool... yeah.....

packed my luggage.... kinda heavy with all the stuffs in there.... den cleaned the hse... coz there will be inspection tml...

anyway..... kinda will miss my jie here lor... plus she dun hav frequent access to internet, meanin wun be able to see her online... haiz.... but jie, dun worry... i can be reached easily lor.... by email, sms, or even call me lor... haha....

my hp back home will be +65 97957190 ..... haha.... dun worry, it is on 24/7 ... haha... :p

ok... slackin time....

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Sunday, November 27, 2005

Tipsy....

ok, just got back from Metro City... haha... was out with arpita and vasil... haha... cool.... music is good tonite..,... me had a bit of too much drink... haha... cant blame... had my "bourbon coke" and "illusion".... haha......

well i saw a catfight... hmmm... apparently my frenz's frenz got into a fight with anor grp of gals... hmmm .... as for me, i just keep changin places... coz dun wanna be included in fights.... esp when me is tipsy... haha..... impressive display though.... haha

anyway, in the afternoon, me went Carousel myself.... since i guess that it will be difficult to get ppl to go with me, might as well i go myself.... bought fresh Salmon and Salmon Roe... yummy.... had fried rice and fish for dinner.... sashimi for after dinner... haha... yummy..... pamperin myself though .... haha .....

anyway, tml goin Freo to check out the fruits and see if got prunes, coz mummy loves the prunes.... hmm.... but den again, i am broke... so maybe just buy a few peaches lor... haha.... too bad....

i realise the feelin of gettin high and recoverin, is so fresh... clear out my mind... haha... ok, not a very good way of doin tings but still an alternative to sleepin pills.... haha....

me gonna sleep now.... alcohol induced sleep which i realli need... ciao....

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Saturday, November 26, 2005

watever....

ok, pass few days was just crap.....

packin up the room..... sleep.... eat ..... super borin.....

went to city with jill, steph and shana on thurs.,.... had lunch, did some shoppin... although i am seriously not in any mood... but still... got a wallet for my bro.... fussy bro.... came back slack arnd... den packed my stuffs to get it over to yitungs place.... last min packin realli make me burst man....

watever.... plans goes hay wire.... so now, gonna wait till i go home.... not a good option but a compulsory one.... wtf......

gonna sleep thru the next two days... dun even bother havin any plans, as i noe, sure go hay wire.... so whats the point? .....

time shld fly faster so that i can get my car next sem... and go out whenever and wherever i wan.... realli pissed off with the transport system here.... with my own car, i can go wherever i wan, no matter what time, and no need to worry abt not gettin home.... damn.... feelin super pissed now.... dun even wanna tok abt it.... realli had enuf of craps.....

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Wednesday, November 23, 2005

All down ....

ok, finished my exams finally... yeah.... great.... was super shiok... haha... i guess all students will never get tired of the feelin when u finished exam... haha....

anyway... was watchin tv and slackin out lor.... nth much though... sian.... if back home, haha... will alreadi gone out to celeb sia... haiz....

didnt manage to sleep again.... slept at 5pm and woke up at 12 plus.... had to go uni to enrol for next yr units... was plannin my timetable, when i realise that i will be dead next sem... well... i onli got lesson on tues and thurs... not that i tryin to squeeze, but the units onli available on this two days... wtf.... of coz, lectures are in the mornin, while tut are in the afternoon.... coz i foresee i will skipped the lect lor... haha....

started to pack my room... and realise, maybe i didnt hav much tings after all... haha..... but well.... gotta pack properly asap lor... haha....

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Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Quote of The Day

"Independence or Reliance???"

ok, basically a simple short quote which means a lot of tings..... is a internal struggle in me for a long long time.... can traced to when i was in pri school.... hmmm....

basically it revolve arnd rs.... be it family, frenz, or bgr.... ok, what i can say out loud is that i am independent when it comes to family, i have learn to survive, maybe not completely, considerin that i haven bought my own house... but expenses wise, i have learn to earn my own expenses... well of coz this time round, a bit of exception... where i wanted to start uni studyin, not workin... to try out how does it feel like to study without workin and livin on a tight budget... haha... manage to survive.... been long time i hav not felt the freedom to study, as i started part time workin 5 yrs ago.... hmmm ..... the onli main concern now, is that when i complete the course, i will need to start repayin the bank loan... hmmm... tink i will tough it out well... confident on that...

but when it comes to frenz or bf... hmmm... tings get a bit sticky here.... affairs of the hrt is always sticky... dun u agree? the internal struggle is mainly, either to pull out or to put in.... sound simple, but to me, i am shiftin between the two ends all the time... esp after a few break downs, hmm... i tend to get cautious...

i was told that i am stubborn, maybe in other aspects of my life, but definately not this... hmmm... after all, i am a gal, and gals are known to be indecisive.... haha... good one rite???

so, i decided to be swinging between the two options, and hope that is the best way to protect me.... what abt u????

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Three Down, One to Go ....

well well, apparently the PR paper was a easy one though.... haha.... luckily they had the MCQ questions, which means i onli need to do one theory question.... which also means that my chance of passin it will be high.... coz i am particularly good in MCQ.... nah.... crap....

mainly is becoz normally what i read is in my short term memory, which consist of several layers.... it can be as short term as 1 day.... haha... that was used for my admin paper... damn crapped..... sometimes if the thing is interestin, well it will be converted into long term memory.... that is where i will suddenly pop up with damn "relevant" issues.... coz i always link up tings that may not look the same.... haha.... was said that i look blur but my mind is spinnin....

anyway, was total drained out, haha.... second time of the day i went out of the exam hall in the very last min.... haha.... is like no one is allowed to leave in the last 15min.... so i timed myself to finish exactly when the invigilator say "this is the last 15min, anyone who ones to leave, put up ur hands now." so my hand shoot up rite after he say "NOW" haha..... and the funny ting was that, rowena who was sittin next to me also raise her hand at the same time.... damn funny, the invigilators were givin us funny look, as if we copy from each other.... haha.... well, honestly, all we had the same tinkin of raisin the hand at the word "NOW" haha... thats all.... and she study, unlike me.... haha... oopz.....

ok, so hitch a ride back home coz the weather is soooo hot... well, was chillin in my room when i had the sudden urge to eat choc, and i finish my supply of choc.... so went to coles just to grab choc.... haha... shld be enuf to last me till 28th nov.... haha.... anyway....

was watchin tv all the way from 6pm till 11pm.... startin with "Simpsons", "Australian Idol Grand Finale", lastly "Numbers" ..... in between the shows, was helpin Garam clean up the flat... coz he goin off tml... haha.... damn Kate won the Australian idol.... i wanted Emily to win.... and honestly, i always tot i heard Kate's full name as "Kangeroos"... haha..... the problem with the australian accent, her full name is "Kate Derous"... was realli laughin.... haha....

got a call from mum, man, she realli gave me a fright, coz she called the house, and normally is i call home, me tot sth happen sia.... damn.... anyway.... singapore callin cards sucks... coz i can hear my voice on a three second time lag.... finally hear how i sound on the other hand of the phone... damn.... was just chattin, haha.... i cant believe i can recognize my mum's voice.... haha... was like "Hello, yes mum?".... haha... believe the unexpected.... haha...

anyway.... gonna pop pills and go sleep, coz i got my last paper tml... in the evening... haha.... yeah... cant wait for the taste of freedom.... but haiz... tml temp was forecast at 33 degrees... wtf.... hopefully it will cool down by late afternoon.... if not how am i supposed to go for my exam... i have to walk that freakin 20 min just to reach the business building... haiz....

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Monday, November 21, 2005

Two Down, Two to Go ....

ok, just got back from uni, finish my admin exam liao.... half screwed.... i tink can pass la.... dun wanna tink so much abt it now... bad for health.... coz i got my PR paper comin up in less den 2hrs.... wtf.....

didnt sleep well last nite, as usual.... so was yawnin thru out the whole paper this morning....

yesterday, i slept at 7 plus 8 plus... in the morning.... decided to give my body the rest..... slept till 3 plus woke up.... as usual, drowsy sia.... no i didnt eat the pills...... was slackin the whole day, tried to read a bit la.... evening was havin pizza with my housemate.... yeah.....

den watch tv in the evening, "Australian Idol, CSI, Biggest Loser" .... that is up till 11pm lor.... den came in study the notes.... den watch "Pimp my Ride" den went to sleep at 1 plus.... also dunno wat time did i realli sleep la.... is like forcin myself to sleep.... man... this is realli bad.....

okok, gotta eat my lunch den go for exams... updates later la....

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Sunday, November 20, 2005

WTF .....

ok, so much of good sleep for the past few days with the help of the pills.... now i am up and kickin and i see the bloody sunrise again.... damn..... cool rite??? NO..... f***

was over at heikal's flat to ask him print some notes... den chat till 2am... was kinda hyper, so was watching "Pimp My Ride" .... watched finish season 1 & 2 that is a total of 30 episodes.... wtf....

this gonna kill me soon man, coz i got a fuckin paper at 830am tml and anor continous one at 130pm.... and i haven even started yet.... and there are fuckin lotsa shows on tv tonite.... damn.... gonna realli test my limits of last min study sia....

now i am tinkin shld i try to pop a pill and sleep, or shld i weather it out.... damn.... dun tink my brain can absorb anytin rite now though.... yet i am afraid that if i pop one now, i wun be able to wake up in time to study.... damn..... wtf.....

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Saturday, November 19, 2005

SLeepy ...

ok, lets see.... haven been studyin, unfortunately.....

Thurs, went out for dinner with anthony and steph, went to Riverton Big W to get the liquor choc for my bro, den went somewhere else which i forget the name.... and i got my lime coke.... haha.... brain juice.... haha.... i realli gettin sick of the food here.... realli... which make me vow that i will learn to cook better stuffs next sem.... and also to eat as much as i can when i am back home.... haha....

yesterday i woke up at 3 plus.... hmmm... coz the nite before, me had 2 sleepin pills.... wanted to try out the effect.... always curious man.... haha.... well.... was a good sleep... but i tink i slept too much.... haha....

and den, in the evening, went jogging with Steph, apparently, i tink the effect of the pills not gone yet.... was feel drowsy lor.... side effect of the pill accordin to the box.... anyway.... onli jog a short distance before i started pantin.... hmmm.... and also the fact that i haven been joggin for some time.... haha.... realli bad.....

kinda had the feelin when i had too many drinks... and the kicks comes in.... cant even walk straight.... haha.... and is like the lightness in the head.... man..... crazy..... it was supposedly due to the blood rushin up the brain.... haha.... this is good, gettin "drunk" without even drinkin, healthy.... but me not goin try that again.... will collapse sia.... imagine i feel like lyin down on the road.... haha.... was told that my stamina went down a lot, i realised that too.... man..... shit..... i dun even tink i will be exercisin back in spore.... haha....

anyway, slack arnd, no mood to study..... for the entire day today..... the temp was super hot.... gonna be like that for the next week, guess it is preparin me to adapt back to the temp back in spore.... haha....

and me decided that for next week, my dinner will be ham muffins with eggs and cheese.... kinda ran out of budget, taken into account i hav to get wallet for my bro, and fruits for my mum.... and need to bring back some money to substain me till i get my pay .... haha....

now, back to study, which i hope i will..... dun wanna flunk any of them.... if not i will hang myself first, coz mum will kill me.... haha....

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Thursday, November 17, 2005

One Down ....

haha.... one down, three more to go.....

realli feel relieved, as the questions are all spot on.... thanks to the "bedtime stories" by my lecturer.... and this is the first time i stayed all the way till the end.... haha.... and i still tink that i got a lot of tings to write... damn....

one funny ting is that, the refill ink i brought along cant fit into the pen, so ended up i was writing without the pen casing.... haha..... now my hand pain... haven been writin for some time.... haha....

went to had lunch at the Noodle house, den came back to rest lor....

yesterday was in the lib muggin, haha.... at least the effort pay off.... if not i sure cry one.... haha....

back to study, or shld i say sleeping.... haha...

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Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Phew ....

guess wat, first ting first....

i got 70/100 for my research paper.... hmmm... well, quite glad it is in the DIstinction range. and well, tutor told me that it is in the top 3 of the class. she say that the paper improved a lot... consider the fact that i took 2 days to finish it... hmmm... even for myself, i can see that the report is still kinda messy, not that very organized. well, all in all, i am realli proud of myself... and i realli have to score high in the exam to get my HD, was kinda pulled down for the ppt... but nevertheless... ganbatte....

okok, back to updates....

last nite was a torture, was rollin in bed for 7 hrs, cant get proper sleep. so i got so frus that i went to get a box of sleepin pills from the pharmacy.. can just get it offshelves man... haha... ok fine, first time i buy sleepin pills k.... hmmm ... gonna have one later... and off to a good nite sleep. hope to wake up fresh to study tml morning....

anyway, went to coles to get chix essence and the sleepin pills... apparently the first ting i open the main door to go out... "Singapore" flashed into my mind. why, coz the temp is at 32 degrees celsius... that heat realli is sooooo hot... and the humidity is still ok... but still, after almost 6 months in perth, esp winter time... kinda hate that weather.... cant imagine me goin back spore to stay for 2 months.... tink i will be cursin and swearin at the weather everyday... hmmmm

went to the lib to study, air conditionin is good man... haha.... started at 11am... took a break at 2pm, was studyin with steph... den went to hav the fish kebab, as usual, haiz... i got it first, and steph waited 5 min to get hers. finally we are eatin the same fish kebab... hmmm ... fate??? haha.... anyway, back to study at 3pm... till abt 6pm, den i met my grp mates to discuss the question till 8 pm... hmmmm ....

came back and watched "Dancing with the Star : CHampion of the CHampions" ... den watched, "The CLoser"... den watched "The Apprentice"... and now i am back in my room.... gonna finished up the rest of the questions... and go sleep... haha..... such a good days for me... haha....

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Monday, November 14, 2005

Headache ....

ok, so much for sleepin early, wakin early...
guess wat, i woke up at 5pm... wtf.... last nite i went to sleep at 3am... becoz i realise my eyes startin to blur... signs of tiredness.... so i went to lie in my bed, what happen was that i realise that my right brain is hurtin so much that i cant sleep.... realli quite bad .... finally was struggling, and is like my mind went dizzy.... hmmm scary.... dunno how i felt asleep also....

now realli gotta catch up on my studyin... damn damn.... i need to buy chicken essence liao... damn, but i freakin no time to spare to go out liao... wtf.... this is level 4 of panic mood... which is no good... on wed i will be gettin into level 5 and pls dun come and disturb me, unless u wanna be blast....

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Whiz ...

ok, lets see... the weekend went like a flash...

what was i doin?? hmm... kinda forget though.... ok.. got it...

i was doin research again... have to change anor approach to the paper... so that is anor whole chunk of journals to read... wtf.... saturday i went to Uni to compile and relevant ones, and that alone is 29 pages... wtf.... was sittin in front of the comp for 4 hrs just to compile and print it out... wtf....

so sat nite i start to do up the report, i started at 10pm... had quite a problem in the introduction. coz i gotta keep in mind that this is a research paper... and not like the old essay that i used to write.... every single detail must be backed by evidence from articles, and u gotta paraphrase it... man..... so was doin and doin.... until i saw sun rise... but i was onli 2/3 thru... wtf.... so i continue to do and do... until finally at 12pm, i completed it... with 15 pages of report and 3 pages of references.... man.... my head is givin way.... so went to sleep... haha.... woke up at 6pm, went to get Chicken treats, just need some fresh air man....

was watchin tv, mainly CSI: New York, and den watched Chicago.... old time movie, but i still like... of coz, i haven forget that i am way behind my schedule to study, so i was readin the case studies for 11 chapters for my Int Mgt paper.... and i realise that there are a lot of tings to rem... oh great.... luckily, this is one class that i never miss, coz it is a 3hrs seminar, and cant afford to miss... haha.... so kinda hv ideas of wat each topic is about... haha....

so, gonna sleep in early tonite, and wake up to go Lib tml.... realli have to settle down n study... coz my first paper is on Thurs.... good luck for those who hav papers tml.... dun hang urself first, wait for me... haha... :p

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Friday, November 11, 2005

Intellectual Conversation ....

i felt that i lack of intellectual conversations.... sth that i like .....

so, today, i had my share of it.... which i realli like.... went to UWA to meet Maureen on the research paper... and yeah.... got a fair share of ideas.... kinda interestin and partly disheartening that the paper got shoot down.... now i hav a better understandin of the Western style of critical thinkin.... hmmmm..... gotta rushed it out by this weekend, but i am sure that it will achieve a grade that i want.... phew....

not to sound crude but, sometimes i just wished to hav a conversation that is rationale.... sth that will make me either see things from different point of views, or even sth that i dun noe.... be it, economy, politics, or even emotional issues that is on a much objective point of view.... wouldnt that be much more enrichin??? .... for me, yes it will....

but is everyone willing to tok abt it? i realise that sometimes, tings may turn personal, which will end up in a disaster.... haiz..... i missed Ben, the american tourist i met back home.... we had like 6 hrs of chattin ... from politics to personal point of view.... we just wished time could be slower.... wonder if i will still get to see him again.... very knowledgable.... impressive.... even if i touched on sensitive issues ... he is willing to give his opinions without gettin offended.... he just willing to tell me everyting, even correctin me on some facts.... he travelled arnd the world, and he stayed and worked in different countries for some time.... he is 25 this yr but he hav the knowledge more den his age... realli great to hav chat with him... even for just 2 days....

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Thursday, November 10, 2005

Thoughts ....

been almost 4 months i have been in perth.... i rem when i fly off, i told myself to start anew... to forget the past... to find my old self.... but till this day.... i realise... it is not as simple as i tot it will be... i tot it will be a turning point in my life.... but up till now, it doesnt seem that way....

there is someone whu i realli wanna tok to... to clear up tings.... coz the knots is still in my hrt....

we knew each other way back some time, i didnt know that you will be one person whu will change me forever. we were good, sharing times, weathered all kinda of situations. maybe i was too naive, but i always tot that we were good frenz.... until that children's day.... the world came crushin on me.... i hate u ... i decided to leave u.... why did u come back? .... even till now we still look as normal, but i know, i cant trust u again.... i realise that we are different in several areas, and i didnt know why i know u in the first place.

because of you, i neber trust not only me, but everyone arnd me. becoz of you, i lost faith in frenzship. becoz of you, i lost my way. becoz of you, i learn the hard way.

up till now, when i tink back of those tings that we do, and that comment that was made, it still hurt. the once-outgoing me was gone. why did u hav to hurt me when i least expected u to? of everyone arnd me, why must it be u? why do i hav to feel responsible for what i am now?

there is a barrier between me and those arnd me now.... i hate the feeling... i became so precautious of every move arnd me, that i feel so tired. i neber noe how to distrust ppl, and till now, i still hate the feeling of that.

i neber look down on anyone, and i trust that you wun. but why did u have to prove me wrong? i always believe that you are not someone whu will become so snobbish despite how u were brought up. i always tot that u wun hurt me. but why did u have to do otherwise?

do u noe the feelin of being stabbed or betrayed by someone whom u least expected, whom u trusted the most? if u knew, why did u have to do that on me?

i am now afriad ... becoz of u.

there was no compromise in ur dictionary, nor there was give. i realise that i have lost a lot of tings, partially is due to u. and the chain reaction is even up till now. why did u have to come back into my life? why did u have to grasp on my handle when u come back? why did u have to treat me in such a way that make me have a regret in my life?

when i decided to give up on u, i was rebuilding my life, it was painstaking. but i told myself that, u are one mistake in my life. it was a turning point. a point of no-return. all was goin well, when u came back. i have to protect that life that i rebuilt, coz i dun trust u anymore. u send the world crashin down on me once, and i dun wan it to happen a second time.

but what is a frenzship without trust? it is not a frenzship at all.... u make me lost the trust in u. i gave u chances to rebuild that trust, but u decided that it is not a priority. u realli make me see how evil can a person be. i promise myself that i will never get hurt by u again.

when will i start to trust ppl arnd me? when will i start to take frenz seriously? when will i face my fear? time didnt heal the wound that u inflicted, as it is too deep.

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Updates ...

well, nth much to say this few days, as most prob will be studying or procrastinating.....

exams nearin, i guess everyone is busy with study lor... well, at least i got my sleep back, which is a good ting..... an old habit kick in again... which is last min studying.... laziness....

woke up quite late today, as just felt the whole body aching lor.... more or less enjoyin the sense of sleep that i didnt hav for the past 2 weeks.... went to uni to print out the notez, which is so thick and cost me a bomb.... this enhance the tot of gettin my printer in next sem....

anyway.... good luck to those out there who are having exams....

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Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Good Morning .....

well well, woke up at 8am... cool rite??? slept at 12am last nite.... was kinda like forcin myself to sleep..... anyway, woke up quite refreshed, which is a good ting.... did my laundry.... and that stupid sun dunno go where liao..... all my precious clothing cannot tumble dry one lor.... damn....

anyway.... me goin either city or carousel shoppin lor.... cindy say i shld relax myself... so i guess, by goin shoppin .... shld be able to relax bah.... haha.....

for ur info, yesterday, i didnt study at all,..... cool rite??? haiz.... jia lat la..... tml must study liao.... today just let me relax......

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Monday, November 07, 2005

Photos ....

ok. here are some photos taken at the Hari Raya party and at the Gala Dinner ... enjoy ....

How does it feel to be arnd traditional costume??? haha.... feelin funny....

well, since it is such a time for celebration, cant forget the Sparklers .... Jasmine, Me, Hafizah, Ying

Ladies of the Nite (Me, Hafizah, Rafidah, Jasmine, Ying)
"James Bond" : King, Suffain, Ga Ram, *I dunno his name*, Heikal, Nigel, Logan....
Posing Time....

Guys Grp photo.....

Girl Power
Anyone interested????

since all look so good, shld take more photo....

oh ya, this is the "good" food we had.... haha....

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Sunrise ....

ok, unfortunately, that is the ting i hate most now.... why? becoz for the past one week or more, i have been sleepin at sun rise.... wat the hell.... if this goes on, i sure will be too tired for my exams man.... haiz....

woke up at 5pm, there goes my day.... wanted to go shoppin one... but den... haiz..... was in the living room the whole evening lor.... watchin tv shows.... so "interestin" man....

came back into my room, was doin this photo album for Li Jun lor.... edited part of my report.... den play yahoo games.... i just cant seem to study lor.... die die.....

so i decided that i shall not sleep tonite... and see if can tune my bio clock..... tml supposedly do my laundry, go coles grab mushrooms, den go study with steph in the lib lor.... haiz..... hopefully can get me into the mood lor.... realli is wtf.....

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Sunday, November 06, 2005

Gala Dinner ....

ok, that is consider a crap dinner lor.... haha

let see, got dressed up at 6 plus, went over Heikal's Flat.... wah... all the guys are smartly dressed.... look as though someone is gettin married sia... haha... as if all goin for a dinner at a 5 star hotel... haha....

anyway, the gals took the car while the guys walked there lor... haha... is in the Hockey stadium lor... becoz we guys reach there quite late, basically there is no table left lor... so ended up, we used innovative ways to get our self a table.... super impressed sia... haha....

the food is like, hmm.... honestly, bought from supermarket.... but dun wanna count so much, as we pay onli 5 bucks lor... haha.... had some funny games, haha.... and den is dance time.... at first was ok, R&B music, but they started to change it to heavy metal... haha... duh.... maybe is their way to tell us that they are closin lor... haha.... came back in the car lor.... haha....

not bad la, Heikal had a crash course on dancin, so does Logan... haha.... kinda fun in a way... haha.... i heard next week is KV's one... haha... yeah.... haha....

okok. time to study though... haha... HD for my IM and D for the rest.... someone just hanged me first.... haha....

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Saturday, November 05, 2005

Partly Relieved ....

well well, i haven update for yesterday man.... haha...

basically was rushin my portfolio, it was kinda relieved to finish it... cant sae it is a wonderful job, but well, at least i finished it lor.... haha... was kinda in a stress up mode lor....

den went to sleep, with the help of anor can of bourbon coke.... damn, i realli worry that i will become a alcoholic ..... slept till 12 plus... missed my class again. damn.... so went to uni with steph, me wanted to print out the stuffs lor.... finally handed in the portfolio... damn... sense of achievement, though with other's help la... haha....

so steph suggested that go play pool, so before that went to get Kebabs, well, this time round, i let her hav the Fish Kebab lor... since i alreadi grab a bit of lunch lor.... haha... not fated to get it together... came back erica.....

played till 6 plus, den went to my place to have Ice sticks lor... haha... went to join Heikal they all for Hari Raya celebration lor... man.... good stuffs lor.... all the home-cooked food.... haha.... indulge in the delicacies.... and it was Suffain's bdae.... haha... so cool to see so many ppl in the traditional malay costume lor.... realli can feel the festive mood lor....

was chillin out at their place till 1 plus.... super tired.... realli enjoyed myself today.... haha... tml nite got the Gala Dinner.... haha... and next week will be study time....

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Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Crunchy Housefly ....

ok, other than that bitch whu nearly spoiled my day.... let me update....

met steph to have kebabs in Uni.... well... seems like we both are not realli fated to have Fish Kebabs together... haha.... kinda not in the mood to go class, so i skipped it... haha... went to abacus for a while, well, i had the chance of tastin a delicacy that i bet not many ppl will dare to try - Housefly..... first impression was Crunchy... haha... of coz i spit it out la... no juice or any funny ting, but now tinkin back, i may hav swallowed a bit of legs and stuffs... haha... supposed to be high in protein and crap....

wanted to play pool at KV but that table was stuck to the wall.... and it is just too heavy.... ended up comin over to my place. and the good ting is that Erica havin RA interview, and great, RA services not available lor... so ended up slacking in my room lor....

den got a barter trade of exchanging Steph for a cup of Bubble Tea.... haha... good exchange anthony... haha..... anyway, was chillin out in the living room.... back to my assignments....

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Freaking Bitch ....

ok, if u all have notice, i had a fucking bitch whu posted a fucking comment on my previous post.... (just a small note to her)

realli make me wonder, what the fuck is wrong with her??? 40 yrs old mother (apparently written on her blog) .... lonely and desperate.... got a rebellious son ( which i personally tink, is her retribution) .... how boring can it get in her life, to start making comments on stranger's blog?

what is the SO big deal abt web developer? when u conc ur whole life on that, and that is why u are lonely now. u lack the EQ. how to live with people? dun blame anyone on ur loneliness, coz you are the one whu cant get along with people. trying to play hard to get, when u are alreadi at that age of no-return. u vent ur frustration on strangers, is that so great about web developer? crap. which guy would wan someone whu is that insensible as u? they rather pay money and go to the strip club. the saddest ting is that even if you pay them, they rather go be gay.

if u think that i am mean, well, same to u. you cross my line first, i am just being graceful to return the favor. and my personal Motto : "double the return" hope you enjoy this post.

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Insomnia ....

ok, i realise i suffering from Insomnia lor.... and it is taking its toil on me.... wondering that becoz of the stress, that is causing this lor....

yesterday, came back home after Bandi gave the whole grp a treat... haha... was kinda hyper.... but at 2am, started to yawn, so i tot it is abt time to sleep.... ended up i was rolling in bed, tossing and turning lor... woke up to try to do the report..... ended up sleepin when i saw the sun rise... damn.... and becoz of that, didnt manage to wake up in time for the Sausage Sizzle tingy....

woke up at 5pm... didnt go class also.... damn.... went to coles to grab mushrooms and apples lor... came back cooked Dinner.... which is pasta la... feeling realli tired, guess is becoz of the insomnia.... watched "The Apprentice" den played Sparkles with my housemates.... Deepavali lor... was quite fun lor....

everyone is crackin under stress, as exam is alreadi in 2 weeks time.... and assignments are still due... crapped.....

me still up, finish half of my portfolio.... try to complete by thurs lor.... coz due on fri.... and also the report... ahhhhh.... my head is cracking.....

meeting Steph for Kebabs for lunch lor.... den is the stupid Admin Mgt seminar...

i need to turn my bio clock, if not, i sure die faster one.... next week will be muggin for exam... first paper is Int Mgt.... my hope for Distinction lor.... wish me luck....

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Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Hyper ....

okok.... effect haven wear off yet.... haha....

basically, guess i was too hype up, ended up see sun rise again... that is abt 6plus... den went to sleep.... and i got a call at 1030 by Carene.... apparently, 2005 IDSF Grand Slam Finals, 18th Lion City International DanceSport Championships is coming to Singapore lor.... DATE / TIME : Sunday, 4 December 2005. Featuring: 2005 IDSF Grand Slam Series Finals (Standard & Latin),and other events including IDSF Open (Grade A), Grade C, Grade D, Junior Open, Juvenile, and Seniors. The top 12 Standard and top 12 Latin couples based on the IDSF World Ranking will be invited by IDSF to compete in the Grand Slam Finals (Singapore). haha....
this news make me jumped out of my bed lor.... too hyper liao.... haha.....

put me into a super good mood today.... haha.... well.....

went to hav club meetin at the Guild club room.... haha... kinda like standardise stuffs lor... and tml got the Sausage Sizzle tingy... haha.... dunno how to settle it also.... but see how la....

were so hungry that went to eat dinner at Mikasa with Steph, haha... ended up late for class... but den... luckily she haven start giving "bedtime stories".... anyway.... she is such a nice tutor... haha... hopefully next sem can be in her class lor.... haha.... of coz not the same unit la... haha....

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