Can This Be Love? .... Maybe.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Thoughts

well, been listenin to advices just now.

it doesnt have to be tings that i wanna hear, nor it have to be tings that sound good. i honestly thank both Nick and Silver for that, treatin me as a frenz and tellin me.

i can see the points that they were makin, or the points that derive from the situation rite now. i am not angry at them, but angry at myself. i am angry coz i noe that is what i dun wanna hear, and it is said straight at me, and it is true.

everyone who noe me before i came over, noe that i am a workaholic. i noe that myself, and once i get a job, the rest of my life doesnt matter, even study. if not for bein overbudget, i told myself that i will not work while i am studying.

i tend to tink that i am a robot, been there, done that. there is no control to how much i will take on, till i realli fall. been there, done that. didnt like it a bit. i dun deny i am stubborn, it doesnt mean that all the advices fall on deaf ears. it is not that i dun listen or i dun tink. but once i tink i am rite, i am stuck with the tinking. until i learn it the hard way.

i can say honestly, i dun wanna go back into f&b industry, but till now, the one job that i realli dun wanna take is chi food restaurant. havin work in one chi restaurant for almost one yr, the exp sucks, the pay sucks and work sucks.

not sayin that i wan an easy job, coz i noe, jobs arent easy. i been workin since i was 16, it wasnt fun at all, until the pay comes in. it was becoz i got sick of workin, that is why i came here studyin, that i why i told myself not to get a job while i am here.

i hate it when i am workin, i lose all my social life, just for the sake of money. one reason i dun wanna go back to spore, coz the money burden will set on me once the plane touch down. money is seriously not my frenz, been burden with it for as long as i can remember.

ppl used to say, work and earn the money before enjoyin life, yeah. try workin 22 hrs a day and earn a lot of money, and when u wanna enjoy it. u dunno how, coz all ur time is spend at work, there is no leisure time nor social time. so u end up working and workin and passing day by. what an interestin life.

it is said that, a plan will be drawn up once i set my mind. wat i can say now is that, if that is the case, my mind is set. but no, i am not gonna make changes to the current living conditions. and i am still gettin my car.

it doesnt matter what kind of job it may be, for if u tink that i cant take job seriously, or u tink i cant take the hard work, let me prove u wrong. for me now, money will be the onli motivation in my life. the rest wun be impt to me anymore. to work is for money, so make much out of it. it will be the best if i can start work immediately, it doesnt matter anymore, seriously.

Considered for a second about our love at {5/23/2006 04:19:00 AM}
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