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Sunday, June 25, 2006

Troubled ...

okie, kinda troubled by work stuffs now. hmmm.... didnt noe why i couldnt wake up for the job man. esp when it was supposed to be 10am. that is for 2 consecutive days. tink i gonna get fired sia.

wat happen was that, i was hopin to go in for full 8 hrs, rite after exam. but wat happen was that the schedule was onli place for 3 hrs. hmmm. wasnt wat i intended. and is like, i am losing interest in the job.

anor ting is that, i found a new job, where pay is higher, simpler job scope, and is like a confirmed 8hrs shift, it clashes with the current one. the onli unconfirmed ting is the startin date.

i was told to give a 2 wks notice for this current job, but the other job was supposed to start in 1 wk time. hmm. shld i take the risk of lettin go of this job and wait to start the other one? i realli dunno.

i realise that with the motivation onli towards money, cant hold me long in a particular job. i lose interest very fast. just dun seem to have the same passion i held in Robinson. hmm. maybe is becoz there isnt much stuff for me to learn or challenge, except make sandwich faster.

the environment is good, i dun deny, but the challenge of the job scope isnt there yet. so wat if i manage to increase my speed, cant be praised for it though. and now that i am still slow, kinda demoralising.

and since it is just repetitive work, den might as well me go into factory to work in the production line. just pasting sticker and screwing caps on. thats it. nth much to do. not that tiring as most of the process is automated and also much higher pay.

still lookin for one job that allow me to meet ppl, guess my true interest is in service line, coz there are so many kinda ppl in this world, and the best place to meet the maximum number of them is still in service line.

i dun deny it is realli tiring, yet the sense of accomplishment is much greater. a thank you from the cust or even a smile will actually make me feel that it is worth it. maybe is the need of recognition. i dun deny there will be sucky cust, yet being able to tackle them and resolve issues will be much more challenging, as each scenario will let me learn sth new. isnt it true?

i still rem ppl saying that i am crazy, to like service industry. yet i have been in it for so long, the onli ting that make me never go back robinson again, is that i have seen their mgt style, i have learn wat i wan to learn and i have reach a ceiling in there.

now that i am in aus, ppl are way more diff, culture is way more diff. sth new and challengin for me. to actually get a taste of the mgt style here. yet in a sandwich making job, the place is just too small, i felt confined to it. with no room to expand.

guess is the Leo's ego at work, where i wanna be in a area that is big, where there is diff ting for me to learn. esp in regards to ppl. be it internal or external. with bigger companies, the challenges are greater, and so is the sense of accomplishment.

i didnt expect me to lose interest in the sandwich job so fast. from what i observe, the shop front is very small, yet there will always be a lot of cust. why? firstly, the location, being situated in Subiaco, which is very near the City or CBD. ppl drive to pick up breakfast and even lunch or high tea on the way. anor ting is the quality, the bread are freshly baked every single day, so are the sandwiches made. ppl are willing to pay money for fresh food. third, the culture, ppl here eat bread, sth diff from the asian culture. to them, bread can be consider staple food.

as for the mgt style, giving almost full autonomy to the staff make them feel part of the team, disputes are cleared easily. they focused on team work, rather den individual work. there isnt much hierachy shown between the top mgt and the staff. there is open discussion on everyting with u and the boss. there is no strict rules to follow, u can tok when u work as long as ur hand is moving. to them, as long as u produce the sandwich, i dun care how u do it. i was quite impressed with the quality control they imposed on each sandwich. just grab one and open it up, all the ingredients are placed nicely. not just scattered. even the quality of the bread is also controlled. opinions are taken to improve, and followed. overall the mgt is considered a flat communication style. which is good in a way.

wat else can i learn? hmm. theres no opportunity for me to move to shop front, no point memorisin how to make all the sandwich as there are instructions to each of the process. the onli challenge i gave to myself was to cut the bread nicely. but it get bored easily. learnt the technique to it, and thats it.

becoz it is such a small shop, i am exposed to almost all the internal surrounding. when observin, tend to find similiarity. did found a few places to improve, such as gettin a machine to slice the bread loaf into equal size, that is to prevent the number of wastage. i realise there are a lot of wastage every single day. human error is unescapable. yet, from a company of that size, is not cost saving. if it were a bigger company, like the job i found in a factory, most of the stuffs will be automated.

i realli dunno how it will be now, i wasnt put on any day for next week, and the boss instruction on the email was to call her. hmm, now i have to tink whether i shld just tender my resignation or wait for her to fire me. coz i simply just cant say i dun feel like workin there anymore.

the consideration i have is that, it was my frenz who intro me in. will kinda reflect quite badly on him though. i can onli find an excuse of sayin that i found a better paying job. take into tot that i onli work here for less den 1 month. hmm.

actually got ppl to replace me, but i dunno whether it is appropriate. shld i just cut this bridge off like wat i did for Jade. hmm. although is just a temp job, but still u neber noe in future when u require assistance from it. realli a big headache for me.

there have been a bet with Nick on this job, he say i wun last for more den 3 months, sometimes i gotta respect him sia. guess i lost a cup of tea to him. the bet wasnt just on a cup of tea, it also included my pride in it. but i realli cant see the point of forcin myself to stay. if i haven found anor better payin job, den money will be the point to stay. yet now, with better paying job, i just dun see the point to stay. hmm.

will be going for 3 more interviews next week. one is for retail, one is job agent and one more is for Metro City. the first one is the one i tink will be fun and i have the most confident abt, the remaining are just interview for fun. no harm tryin. as Nick says "never try, never know".

last few weeks i applied for a position that i realli wanna do, which is "Mystery Shopper" but too bad i got rejected. hmm. wun that be interestin, coz i have been in sales line for a considerate amt of time, just a sideline to wat i do.

there are a few jobs that realli caught my eye, most of them i got rejected. damn. still a tiny hope for that bowling alley job. bowling have been my interest since sec sch. rem used to go bowling almost everyday after sch, and joined the bowling team and goin for national competition. used to be the end-user, will be very interestin to be in the back-end i.e counter staff. get to meet ppl of similar interest, and maybe will get my mum to send over my equipment. dun mind re-igniting that passion again.

anor place which so far haven seen any job ad is Snooker/Pool. been playin lotsa pool after poly, haven gotten my own equipment, yet temptin to. also been the end-user, yet never join any competition, which i tink i haven reach that stage. haha.

also anor place, which also no job ads, is dance studio. love dancing since young, esp ballroom. had that fufill when i was in poly, join quite a number of competitions, got my first trophy. get to meet a lot of similar interest ppl.

one area that i wanna go into other den service line, is actually events mgt. organizin events, the bigger the better. that will give a huge sense of accomplishment. haven got a chance, but will be lookin out for it.

after reading the above, u may say that i am one who kinda find a job that is either my passion or interest. personally, i believe that, money may get u into a job, but is the passion and interest that will bring huge sense of accomplishment and make u stay in a job.

according to Maslow Hierachy, which all of us shld be very familiar with. i am aiming at the highest tip, which is the self-actualization and self-esteem. since i am not tied down with family, i just had to make sure that i have enuf to eat. financially sufficient and secure, den is the passion and interest of the job that actualli help me attained the highest level.

i am a curious person, wantin to experience and learn a lot of tings. i noe i shld settle down one day, yet now is not the time. now is the time for me to expose myself to as much tings as possible. coz as i grow older, the responsibilities are greater. i will not have the freedom as i have now. isnt that true?

"To live to learn, or to learn to live" simple yet complex. isnt it?

ppl always ask me, "where do u see urself in 10 yrs time?" i can say i realli dunno. but what i noe is that, i will be makin full use of my time learning tings, be it academic or social. life is short, i never noe when i will be gone, there are so much tings to achieve, yet so little time. waitin for opportunites to knock and also seekin opportunites at the same time. i dun wanna regret on anyting when i am at my deathbed. not being pessimistic, but i just wanna feel that i hav live my life worthwhile.

honestly, when i am slacking, i do reflect on myself, just sortin tots will keep me occupied for some time. the mood comes for me to do some deep reflection and thus such a long post. if u actually took the time to read thru it, thank you. if u actually took the time to reflect upon urself, well, hope it helps. i am not sayin that everyone must follow this, as this is just me and my tots. u may have ur own way of tinkin which u tink is ur way, den go ahead. each of us are different, no matter what similiarities we may have. this is just me and my tots.

Considered for a second about our love at {6/25/2006 01:43:00 AM}
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