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Sunday, July 09, 2006

Thoughts

well, was actually tinkin of some stuffs. almost goin 22 in 1 month's time. time realli flies, what have i realli achieve durin this time. have i fufill my wish for last yr?

well, kinda of. enjoyed myself with the company of good frenz, esp Silver and Maddox lor. felt happy and contented that i met them. the fun and laughter that we had, of coz we had seen each other angry face before, but still, compromisin and toleratin allow us to maintain on a balance.

life is full of coincidence, thus create opportunities. isnt it just so great? i dunno the future for the three of us, as in the frenzship bond that we had, but what i noe for sure is that, i will cherish them as my frenz. i had learn a lot of tings from them, and i believe that there are more tings that i can learn from them.

didnt realli understand why me and Silver got that close, maybe becoz we are similar in some ways, yet kinda opposite in anor. such a complicated theory, which actually is based on the simple theory of Magnets - opposite attract. i realise that actually we both are in neutral field. that is why we can be so close. of coz there are times when both of us are on repel field, yet we both noe when to cool down, which in turn neutralize the situation. is just a give and take ting.

life is complicated, yet if u break it all down, it is made up of many simple theories. there isnt just right or wrong , but also the grey area that is in between. and it is for ourselves to actually define our own grey areas.

i tink i have become more and more stable, in the sense that i realli start to think more specifically on my future. i realli wanna stay in perth even after i graduate. went to find out more on the options of stayin, all seem so hard. yet i noe that, if i realli wan, i can get it.

kinda facin a dilema now, i do miss home, esp my family. yet i just dun wanna go back. ppl say i am forgettin my roots, but i am not. i noe one day, i will go back spore. but now is not the time, i haven enjoyed myself enuf. one day when i am tired, i will willingly go back. but i dunno when will be the day.

i cant be caged, or snapped off my wings. i knew it, my parents also noe it. that was why they let me go. yet, i miss the feelin of family. is not sayin that frenz are no good, no matter how close they are, they cant replace the family feel. i wanna go out and strive, experience tings. mum said before, i am like a kite that met the wind, she can onli let loose the string if not the string will break. which is true. she also say that, when the wind dies down, den i will find my way back. no point retractin the string, coz i am one who dun comply to force, i am one who is rebellious.

am i not as independent as i tot i am? am i just puttin a strong front without a solid foundation? sometimes i realli wonder. startin to lose it. gonna get into a stage of depression again, damn it. just felt kinda losin confidence in myself again.

actually wanted to post much more, but lose the mood to do so, gonna sleep now.


Considered for a second about our love at {7/09/2006 04:07:00 AM}
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