learnt a lesson today, or shld i say a piece of advice that will be the decidin factor whether i will enjoy myself thru the end of this week.
learnt to forgive.
simple, yet it is hard for me to achieve. not when someone steppin on my head. the basic instinct told me to cut of the bridge, as the troubles that come along are within the few instinct that i am havin.
puttin my tolerance lvl to a test, and to see how long i can last. it wun be a friendly sight, yet is unavoidable. the longer it dragged, the deeper the trouble will go, and by the time i wanna unroot it, a lot of ppl will be involved.
it was a mistake at the beginning, and a mistake to let it go on. a mistake that can be salvage, if i cut it off. ppl will get hurt, like i say before, with a refocus in what i wan in life, emotional consequences cant be avoided.
since ppl will get hurt, why not make it a short one? once and for all, draggin on time, will onli hurt ppl even more. the last favour that i can give, is to lessen the hurt. i dun owe anytin to the one anymore.
i am not one who easily let go of tings, but for me to reach that stage, i realli lose hrt in that person. dun see the point of takin as nth happen before, tryin to be the same, when i noe that i will always rem it. I will forgive, but i will neber forget. but both options doesnt seem to be in near future.
take this as a last favour that i am returnin to you, for from now on, you are out of my life. you dun deserve to be in my life. that is what i can say, you provoked me in a way that i wasnt able to give u any benefits of doubt, what will be of u, if you dunno the basic of all human interaction, trust.
Considered for a second about our love at {8/15/2006 10:05:00 PM}
