why do i have to explain every single decision that i made? sometimes, some tings are meant better not to be said.
those who noe me, noe that i wun made a decision that will hurt others. i hate it when ppl misunderstand my point of view totally. saying that i tink too much, but i can say i tink further den anyone else expect me to tink.
since i can foresee trouble brewing, why cant i be the one that is tryin to nip it at its bud? rather den tink that i am selfish or mean, why dun start tinking of the consequences? tink from my point of view, not the view that is being portrayed as me being unreasonable, or childish. but from the view that as me tinking of others before me.
i dun like explaining myself, when i noe that the time is not ripe yet. but i hate it when ppl just misunderstand me, and assumed that i am just being unreasonable. i am well-known to be stubborn, but i sure have my point of view to back me up. i am not some spoilt brat who just wanna act stubborn, i have been thru and seen enuf of shit for me to know if i am heading towards one.
when a frenzship is built on trust, once it is broken, there is no way back. every frenz arnd me, or shld i say the closer ones, are all built on trust. there are different levels to it, and it is up to me to decide who is worth the trust. i am not one who is intolerant of mistakes, coz i do err too. but when it happen continously, and when i decide that the trust is broken, that frenz will never be on my trust list anymore. esp when i say sth that i said not be said out, it mean it is not to be said at all. simple theory. coz most of the time, i just need a listening ear to vent it out. thats it. not for the issue to be brought up, and creating ripples of trouble.
okie, goin onto a lighter subject....
birthday comin up in a week's time. more or less havin programs scheduled. hopefully gonna be an enjoyous one. it doesnt matter if it is a small dinner, or to the extent of huge party, my birthday all i wan is to celebrate with my frenz, everyone enjoyin themselves. i always make a point not to flare any temper on my bday celebrations, coz it is supposed to be a joyous occasion. every kind of celebrations programs, what i am lookin at, is not how much pressie i am getting, but more like how many of my frenz enjoyed and had fun. simple.
what i request of all my frenz who are celebrating my bday with me, be it advance, on the day, or belated, is to respect my point of view. I dun wanna see black faces arnd my bday parties, coz once i see that, i will call off the entire ting. i dun see the point of havin a party with ppl havin black faces. dun even tink of hiddin it or even actin it, for i am one who is trained to pick up sensitive vibes. and if i am the one with the black face, it will mean that the particular incident realli make me break the promise to myself.
i am a fussy person to some extent, but i do have high tolerant level, as long as frenz are wise enuf not to stepped on my tail. i live by my principles, "i will repay twice of everyting that is done to me, be it good or bad".
alrite, gotta sleep now, workin tml. ciao.....
Considered for a second about our love at {8/08/2006 01:09:00 AM}
