Can This Be Love? .... Maybe.

Monday, April 16, 2007

Tight Slap ....

well, seriously today is one bad day.

early in the mornin, went to work, recieve a shockin news, one that i nv expected. i lost the AM position in Girr. well, Lyle got promoted. felt like a tight slap on my face, felt seriously betrayed.

my emo was unstable, yet i had to put on a strong front. esp when team members keep askin if i was ok, any moment i was gonna burst into tear. keep tellin myself to stay strong, but the question WHY kept poundin my head. plus i am on reg, which is kinda good, coz that kinda avoid the team in one way or anor.

i dun deny Lyle is capable of that position, or maybe on par with me. i am glad and i noe that he will be able to step up to it. but what i felt upset abt is the fact that i had the experience in TRS but he doesnt. it kinda unfair to me. if me and him were to start on the same day, and he got promoted, i am willing to lose it to him. but for the fact that, i had the experience and he doesnt, that i lost it to him. well, isnt that a tight slap on my face.

wasnt realli in a good mood when i got off work. but still hav to keep a straight face. went over to Elise place for dinner, it was a yummy meal, yet i cant taste it. just felt like curlin up somewhere and nurse the wound. a call from Tegan, got me out.

went over to her apt, couldnt hold longer and broke the news to her. had a long chat abt it, in terms of wat were my expectations of this company, and how i lost trust, how i felt bein stabbed twice. how implied promises fall apart, how upset i was. just couldnt hold the strong front anymore, and i noe that if i need someone to tok to, it is her.

basically she was shocked, but she offered a few solutions for me. now, i gotta weigh the pro and cons of each. whichever it is, the condition was for me to tok to andre first. to find out WHY. tml nite, there is a team meetin, and i noe what is the main agenda, gonna be a tough nite, while it will put me in the toughest position, to keep a straight face in front of the whole team.

i noe i cant act like a fuckin kid, challengin that decision she made. i cant make Lyle lose the respect from the team. and the most impt, i cant let the team lose respect of Andre's decision. all i need to noe now is WHY did i lose that position that was supposed to be in my takings.

gonna be a tough day tml, swollen eyes not gonna help, so i am gonna grab some slp. ciao ppl.

Considered for a second about our love at {4/16/2007 11:25:00 PM}
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