Can This Be Love? .... Maybe.

Sunday, June 03, 2007

Yeah ....

well, called home today, just had the feel to call. kinda shocked in terms of my mum tellin me that my grandfather and my auntie will be followin her to aussie during my grad. hmmm, didnt noe how to reply. how good can it get, not that i am very interested abt that. i haven seen them for donkey years. hmmm, all i noe is that i owe my grandfather a huge sum of money, as he did supported me in my studies. when everyone looked down on me, he didnt lose hope in me. hmmm, but weird feeling. firstly, my mum wanted them to stay at my place, not to say that my place is small, yet, feels weird. realli weird. hmmm. dunno whether to look forward to it. hmmm. weird.

was at Pot Black with Dav just now. hmmm, snooker time. realli wanted to play since dunno when, considerin i noe that my skills had went down. hmmm. den we headed down to Time Zone, and of all the games, is that stupid basketball machine. i dun tink i am a basketball fan, and true enuf, even after 3 free games, i swear i hate it. my arms are hurting and aching. haha. den we headed down to MaMak Bistro. hmmm, had pizzas and pratas. haha. now back home, hmmm, shld i try to stay awake to pick my PA up???? hmmm.....

was told this afternoon that i might end up with someone of benefits rather den liking. hmmm, unfortunately that might be the case for me bah. was discussin abt the topic of doing tings alone. well, all i noe is that, i cant do a lot of tings alone. the extreme case was to eat on my own. i rather not eat. which makes a lot of ppl worried. hmmm. but i realli cant. i might be independent in some ways but definite not in many others. i haven tried to watch movie on my own, except on dvd. i had tried to go shoppin on my own, but it must be those quiet days. dun even tok abt goin holiday on my own, i rather not go.

was told that after bein single for sometime, there is a feelin of gettin the someone special, someone to lean on. hmmm, glad to hear that, as it just shows u to be normal. looking for someone new, it sounds easy on the ear, but not in my reality.

chances hav past me by, opportunities have come and bye. the future that i see now, does not contain any possibilities of that. i dun conform to the stereotype in the society, i dun believe in changing who i am just to get the other half. if i were to change myself, i rather not be in it. to put on a mask on multi layers wun made me happy at all. it will just add to the pile of problems i alreadi had.

one ting i learn while i am here, ppl come and go, whether u like it a not. ppl choose their own path, and u werent in it at all. cherish the times u hav, for u wun noe when will be the next. make every goodbyes a happy one, coz u might not hav the chance to repent on any mistakes.

for me, i am glad i hav frenz arnd me who cares abt me. for them, i care too. what might hav sound like a harsh scolding, will hav it reason behind it. the day when i dun say anytin at all, will be the day i give up hope on u, i had done what a frenz shld hav done, and there is nth more i can do, but to pray and hope u will realise that soon.

to see someone and hav a natural smile on ur face, that is the simplest happiness in life. a smile doesnt need much energy, yet it has the power of brightenin up ppl's day. u can nv fake a smile without bein busted, coz it is all in the eyes. so ppl, the next time u see someone u care, no matter how fucked up ur day is, look into their eyes and smile.

Considered for a second about our love at {6/03/2007 02:44:00 AM}
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