Can This Be Love? .... Maybe.

Monday, October 15, 2007

Internet Down

okie, that is not the full case scenario..... only happened last week.

been battling myself 2 weeks ago, went back to work refreshed. Got 2 huge news, extreme ends. Andre gone, and my visa had problem. hmmm, went into a huge frenzy, even into self destruction, emo, u name it.

wasnt able to calm myself down, searchin arnd aimlessly, sleepless nitez, suddenly just felt i lost my directions totally.

took me one week, a tedious week, before i found the answer that i want, from someone. someone who noe me well enuf to smack it straight into my face. i knew i shld have find him from day one, yet i chose not to. didnt know why, but maybe i wasnt even thinkin at all.

as i was sufferin, ppl arnd me got the vibe too. i guess it reach a point where i just couldnt care anymore. while busy pushin the pessimistic tots out of my brain, had to handle the new situation at work.

while tackling the new found disbelief, had to plan my paths out. isnt easy, when all pointed to nought. i sought into the land of despair. desperation to stay afloat.

had a huge burst out, which stunned even the one who noe me close. which doesnt make it felt better. felt myself not being able to fight this battle, felt myself being stubborn with meek future. it kinda felt like just a thin lifeline i am hanging onto. cuttin me deeply yet doesnt wanna let go.

pennin the tots downs, i lost words. there isnt any words that could realli describe that feeling. even up till now, when tings seems a bit better, i still sway.

how does it feels when the one that u hope to get support on, tink otherwise? no one to blame, just felt that way.

work wise is much better now, at least i hav done what i shld have done. to make it a better working environment.

still cant tink properly.

Considered for a second about our love at {10/15/2007 09:31:00 PM}
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