those whu is close to me know that i just applied for 2 other jobs.
one is confirmed liao, pretty much casual work on the wkend, parking officer represently Subi town council, hmmm, i tink i am gonna issue traffic infringement. haha. considering the fact that it is just a 5hr shift, doesnt make much difference i supposed.
the other one is what i am hesitating abt, is actually with a media monitoring company. and in terms of that, the main role is to listen to the radio and draft summaries. hmm, considering that it is pretty related to my degree, and i am always kinda wanna know how the media industry work. i dun tink i can be a star, so maybe thru backstage bah. hmmm.
however, the hitch is that, it is a part time job which ranges from monday to friday, and i supposed there is the peak hrs. lets not put pay into the factors, the hrs wise, i wun be able to fulfill my TRS mgt role. which means, i might hav to drop the mgt position.
i am hesitating, on one hand, i am realli gettin tired of TRS. maybe is that i lost the interest, or maybe is that i am not copin as well as i tot i would. on the other hand, if i take up the media job, is a brand new industry, is a career path changed. i noe i am not supposed to be tinkin of "what ifs", but, what if it doesnt suit me?
got commented that why did i get a second job? or even a third? am i tryin to kill myself? well, if it could, i might hav an answer to how strong i am. what can i do on my off wkend? lazed arnd? well, the workaholic in me is actin up. when i see time as money, yeah.
i hate myself bein like that, every single second counts. money money money. sth that is not everyting, but without it, its nothing. why?
ask me abt social life? well, unfortunately, as plain as god knows wat. interestin activities? eat, slp, watch tv?
i guess i need that gust of confidence, or impulse. i am waitin for that part of me to surface, to be able to shut my rationale mind down for a while, and do sth that is out of the norm. i hav come to terms that my comfort zone is pretty much fixed. and for me to break it, well, i need that sudden impulse to jerk me out.
till then, or till the media company call me.
Considered for a second about our love at {3/12/2008 10:42:00 PM}
