Can This Be Love? .... Maybe.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Thoughts

well, counting down to my bday, mixed feelings. some say i am getting "younger", some say i am getting "older". i personally tink it doesnt matter. have i reach the stage of not caring what ppl say? the stage where maybe some prefer to be? is that stage the best for me now?

still givin some the aloof feeling, the "i-dun-care-if-the-whole-world-turning-its-back-on-me" attitude. hmmm. had a chat with Nic the other day. we are toking about investing in property. hmm, and one ting he said is stuck in my mind, "if u dun find sth to curb ur self now, so what if you are ahead of everyone now; you will fall backwards in no time."

i dun deny that, considering what i have achieve now, is thru hard work and seriously, comparing to a lot of my peers, i am consider yrs ahead. starting to lose momentum, coz my 5yrs plan have been reduced to less den 3 yrs, it shld be a good ting, as it meant that i have increase my efficiency whereby given in less input to achieve maximum output. mgt tingy. hmm.

however, coz i am ahead of my peers, i dun have that continuous motivation of which direction to head to next. hmm, even Nic say that i am ahead of him. considering he was the one that lead me to my current position. and the reason why he fell behind was what we both agree to be "a small melody of life", or simply to fall into temptation. i have seen what it can do, and i have been telling myself not to make the same mistake.

though it is a battle on my own, but wun it be better if i had someone with me? it doesnt have to be a rs, but just a frenz to fight along with me. like what Nic is. the tables turn between us as now i am the one makin sure he doesnt make the same mistake again.

now that everyting hav more or less stable down, it just make me wonder if its time to start to expand my wings. still consider to be in the rat race, as money is still one main ting. until i have the 80k in my bank sittin, i will still be chasing it. but shld i go arnd Aus? calculated risk. hmmm.

the race will take some time, and day by day, i can feel myself pulling away. am i trying to take flight again? hmmm, the pressure isnt that huge as before, but it sure has taken its toll on me. i feel proud of myself, but sometimes it does come back to me, if i had sacrificed too much?

24 yrs of living and time still tickin by.

Considered for a second about our love at {8/10/2008 11:27:00 PM}
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